Entry 22

I cried at work in front of a whole load of customers! But I'll get to that later...

Ok, so I have finally finished my 1st semester of my 2nd year of University, which I'm really happy about. All I have to do now is pass my studio classes and my critical studies essay, which by the way, was worth 60% of my grade for that class... so fingers crossed... AND then pass my film exam on the 26th of June and then I'm "free", well, at least I will get a clean slate for next semester.
I have set up some rules for myself for next semester when making art, or rather questions to ask myself before I start.
1. Will I still enjoy doing this project later down the track?
2. Will I realistically be able to get it done within the time limit?
3. Will I be able to research the conceptual ideas behind the work?
4. Will I be able to afford the costs of making this art work?

Hopefully if I remember these it will make everything a lot easier

Ok, back to the crying at work...

Basically I've been so run down with Uni and everything and I worked from 12pm-9pm on the Saturday (covering for another girl) which I was rather annoyed about because I was planning to sleep that day. ANYWAY, after that I worked 9am-5pm on the Sunday and basically I was so tired from working so much, and I was standing in the fitting room (I work in the clothing section of a department store) just hanging up on last piece of clothing before I put out a whole load of clothes (which I had just finished hanging and had put on the other wall from where I was standing) and the Duty Manager saw me just with the one piece of clothing and came up to me saying "You're letting the whole team down, your department is a mess and all you're doing is standing there hanging up clothes while everyone else is busting their butts off"... I was so pissed off at this, she didn't even give me a chance to talk she basically just came up, told me this and walked off again!

And just the thing that got me the most of it all was I had been busting my butt all day yesterday and that day too! She just happened to walk passed at the moment when I was hanging up one last bit of clothing and I suppose I must have just looked like I wasn't "doing any work", if she had come along 2 seconds later I wouldn't have even been there because I would have been out putting out all the cloths I had JUST finished putting back on their hangers!
I just REALLY wanted to cut her off and say "How the HELL am I supposed to put clothes back in their places if they're not hung up ?!".

ANYWAY, after that while I was putting away the clothes I just got so upset and angry that tears started rolling down my cheeks, I tried my best to hide it but they just keep coming. I ended up ranting to the 3 girls who worked in clothing and the 1st one I just burst out in front of a whole load of customers waiting to try on clothes. It was seriously embarrassing, but I couldn't stop myself.
I don't know (about to go personal) with me, I don't often cry, infact a lot of times even when I really want to I just can't, but if I do end up crying I cannot stop AT ALL even when I really want to, and for the rest of the day I end up bursting into tears at the drop of a hat!
... although in this instance I don't think it helped that I had the Wattie's lol (haha sorry inside joke)

Entry 21... Yes I'm switching to numbers

I'm gonna lose my mind and sail the ocean, 'cause somebody told me there were cherry blue skies.
I'm gonna fix my mind with a final destination and have a deep sleep upon a sweet dream I'll never realize...

Entry Eighteen

Ok, So...

I'm actually really frustraited with the whole Mystery Channel thing, like, it was kinda exciting and stuff at first, but I duno, now it's just kinda become really boring and annoying. All the videos are the same with the same stupid hidden messages that you have to go back and freeze and then still watch the stupid video another 5 times to catch what it says, and then once you know what it says it still doesn't make any sense because its all a bunch of stupid random letters like: BM WR ZC RY XV GJ S K K WR BM FH WR
...WTF...
I think it's also partly from frustration of just not knowing what's going on and the whole process of whatever they're doing taking so long.
I have a feeling I'm going to be booted from it soon anyways...If they even do that kinda thing.

Guh, and in the mean time I have things that are actually WORTH worrying about... Sigh, I can't wait till this stupid semester is over, I hate the project I'm doing now, its just turned into complete crap and I'm probably going to get a really bad mark for it, but I think I've gotten to the point where I just don't even care anymore, as long as I pass I don't care what my mark is.

Its so weird, people I semi know keep coming up to me and saying they've seen me on youtube, like people from Uni or people from work or people I used to go to school with. It's actually really annoying, like I swear at least one person each day has come up to me and said that they've seen me on youtube... there where 2 people today at work. Sigh...
It's also funny because I also keep getting messages from random people who've seen my videos messaging me saying they've seen me around the city. New Zealand is too small for youtube.

If you've not heard it already I suggest you go listen to "Black and Gold" by Sam Sparro, do it now!

Entry Fifteen (HUMAN TRAFFICKING!)

Well yesterday I got my new assignment for my Studio (Art) class and we have to do a collaboration work with someone else in our group. So Me and this other girl in my group decided to work together and we where talking about how we would want to do a design project, then I started talking about something I have been thinking about for the last couple weeks; Human Trafficking.

(Just if you didn't know, Human trafficking is where children, girls and boys, in poor places are sold, stolen, or tricked into becoming slaves and prostitutes by people taking advantage of their situations)

So we have decided to do an art design project to raise awareness about Human Trafficking, not just in the world, but also how there are cases of it in New Zealand (and other Western Countries) which I don't think many people know about.

We are going to make posters and stick them up all around town. We are also thinking about making t-shirts that people would buy and then the money from that would go to an organization that is involved in trying to stop human trafficking. As well, we are going to try get our designs etc into the University magazine (not just out University but hopefully others as well).
I is going to be a lot of work for the both of us, especially because in terms of the assignment we only have 6 weeks to do it in, and still have four final works (each?) to be marked...

Our first step is going to be trying to collect as much information about human trafficking, so if you are reading this blog and know of any good books/websites/organizations/contacts that we could get hold of that would be really helpful.

We are also going to start a blog to document each stage of our project.

I will probably make a youtube video about sometime too...

I really hope it goes well...and if you or anyone you know could help in some way that would be really awesome

Entry Fourteen

I MADE PARTNER!

Entry Thirteen

It's embarrassing that I am wondering how to spell the numbers in my title as they get higher...

So, it's been a while,
I've just handed in a HUGE project, and an essay...So I'm feeling pretty good at the moment,
although, I now have to write ANOTHER essay for a different paper, which I really don't want to do, but it's worth 40% of my mark for that class...
So I better do it, and I better do it well.

I think it's funny how there are so many circles of groups on YouTube and you can often feel like a social butterfly as you become more involved in one group or another.
At the moment I feel like I am involved in maybe one or two...maybe three groups of people, and then I feel like i'm on the out skirts of other groups...I don't know, its just very funny.
I think it also depends a lot on how much time you put in to talking to people and staying in contact. When I was still on holiday it was a lot easier to keep in contact with people, but now that I'm back at Uni, it's a lot harder...hmm (oh and just if you where wondering, I know this kinda thing happens in real life too).

I'm really looking forward to this weekend because I'm going to see the movie "Across The Universe" which i've been wanting to see for a very long time now. Then after I'm going to this bar called "Shadows" to see my friends band play! Then after that (other than work and writing my stupid essay) I have the whole next off! YAY mid-semester break!! It kinda sucks because of easter being early this year its only 1 week instead of 2, but to me, any break is wonderful!!!

Entry Twelve

...Oh dear...It's 3am...and I'm still online..
It's 3am and I REALLY want to be asleep in bed...but for some reason I'm up writing a blog. Makes complete sense I know!
I'm hating Uni so much at the moment...I mean...more than usually...I have all this crap due *tears* and I'm so behind...
Sigh...and now I'm also extra broke! cos i just went out and bought myself an ipod (which i'm real happy about except for the loss of money in exchange for it lol)...Tomorrow I have to go buy a cover for it so it wont get all scatched up..
and I also have to buy a tripod, so I can do some awesome photography!!!
Maybe i'll put a photo or two up once it's all finished... (which will be in a couple weeks)

I'm so looking forward to midsemester break, which is in 2weeks, although, it sucks because it is only a week long instead of two because easter came early this year... But the only bad thing is that I have another essay due on the 1st day back after that...so i'll have to get that done...pleh...

I'm feeling so drained from uni...I really have to start going to bed WAY earlier...like 11:30pm instead of 2am...
sigh...and it sucks because i'm in there every week day with no break and i work on sundays so i only have one day "off" which is saturday which i then have to use as a catch up day for all the work i have to do...which sucks because all i want to do on saturday is sleep!!!

AHHHHHHH when will this madness end?!?!?! ...in about 2.5 years...sigh...

Entry Ten

Well, tonight has been quite eventful!

First some friends and I went to see Step Up 2, which is basically like any other hip-hop/dance movie, but the gags where funny, the leads where hot and the moves where amazing... What more do you need?? (ha)

After that we decided to head to Denny's as it was the closest and not as disgusting as Burger King (in my opinion).

Instead of getting desert there (which to tell the truth I was rather sad about because I was quite looking forward to a hot chocolate mud-cake...but oh well...) we thought it would be fun to buy desert from FoodTown and take it to this place where some of my friends where recording music for their band.
I bought a 2L tub of strawberry/vanilla/chocolate ice-cream (bad move), and grabbed about five packets of orange tic-tacs (Juno reference).
Upon arriving we found some spoons and started eating... Needless to say, I felt pretty sick from the ice-cream (I got like a 3rd of the way threw the tub with out throwing up, which was a plus)

Later, I was talking with some friends outside and this (about 14-ish) kid with a black t-shirt and camo pants was walking around and so we asked if he was ok, he asked to use a phone inside and we said, sure go for it.
About 15-20min after he left some of my other friends pulled up and told us about how the police where looking for someone (I have no idea why, but they had a radio in the car that could pick up police/planes/trains and the near by Mc D's radio signals) who had just stabbed their father... And it happened to be the kid with the camo pants and black t-shirt!!!

So as you can probably tell the night got pretty exciting with calling the cops and more run-ins with the stabber kid..etc. etc.





Other than that, Uni is lame, assignments are killing my soul and I have enough readings to sink a ship...sigh... F.M.L!!!

Entry Seven

OK, so i've not written a blog in a while..LOL so I thought I would write something...
But now that I'm actually here...LOL I can't be bothered

HAHA!!!

...(a couple days later)...

So, I'm going back to Uni on Tuesday...That should be... Fun?
I guess it will be kinda cool seeing some of my Art school buddies again:-) and it will kinda be nice having something to do!
I swear these last couple weeks I've done hardly anything...

-My basic day would be wake up (which usually takes a couple hours haha)
-then go online...
-maybe get some breakfast at 1pm
-online
-play the piano...I only know disney songs...because we have a disney song piano book...(or guitar depends how i'm feeling that day)
-online...btw this involves A LOT of stickam as well as a lot of <333333ing and loling
-sing
-online
-maybe cook myself dinner?
-be online untill all the Canadians and Americans that I talk to go to sleep
-go out with friends...or my sister...
-go online one last time
-eventually fall asleep

Yeah, so as you can see, thats pretty sad LOL

Although, to tell the truth I'm actually going to miss being able to talk to some of the people I talk to online as often as I do, because with the times my classes are on and the timezones I might not get to talk to some of them :-(

...I got my hair cut a couple days ago...how fun!

...My guy friends have gone away this weekend on like this "Man Camp" thing LOL so us girls have decided to have a girly night with wine and crackers and chick-flicks so that should be fun, but at the same time I'm pissed off cause the next day I have to work from 9am-5pm which is super lame!!! I really wish I decided to do the Saturday shift instead of the Sunday one...oh well.. hopefully that will be alright

Oh! and on the 8th of March I'm going to a "drinks and dresses" party so that should be fun times too...I really hope that this kid who I worked with on Thursday nights was invited (he was staying at the persons house who is having the party for like a month) and well, to tell the truth, I miss that kid!(although he said he was quitting anyways so i'm not AS sad about not working with him anymore) But he's only like 15-16 so he might not have been invited...oh well...

Anyways...I'm up to the sleeping part of my day...yeah..................

laterz

Rache

Entry Five

...I kinda wish I had a more interesting name for these...

OMG! My tv has the worst reseption ever! It's like looking at a flock of seagulls over a rubbish tip!...At least the audio works?

Ok so in my last Blog I talked about stuff that annoyed me about YouTube, well now I think it is only right that I rant about Stickam! (although I probably won't go into much detail)

-People who have like a million friends asking for friend requests!
-LAG!!!!!!!G...G...G
-Broken audio and video...and,like, freaking and stuff
-When people you want to talk are live but their rooms are set on private! guh!
-How stickam makes the rest of your interenet go sloooow *tears*

umm yeah I think thats about it! HA!

...Sigh, I have to go to work tomorrow and I REALLY don't want to...
It's my last Thursday night working, which means after that I will be working Sundays 9am-5pm which is LAME! I wish I could still work nights but I just can't with my University timetable.
Also I'm not looking forward to Sundays because I don't really like the people who I will be working with, sigh...
Although working Sundays will mean I get to answer calls a lot which means I won't have to "work" as much as I do on the Thursday nights...like putting away clothes and such...(Oh, if you didn't know I work in the clothing section of a department store)

Entry Four

There are some things that annoy me about YouTube...*GASP*...I KNOW!

So... I'm not going to really list them in a particular order but here we go:

-When people tell me to subscribe to them..
Ok, Ok, I know I've done it myself "hey you know you should subscribe to me *hint hint*" but I do it in more of a joking way...I don't really expect people to subscribe to me, I mean, they can if they want to...But yeah, I don't really mind either way! Anyways! I always feel real bad if someone has just subscribed to me and then they leave a comment along the lines of "Hey I just subscribed to you, can you subscribe to me back"...I'm just like ahhhh! Crap! Please don't put me in this situation! Cause most times out of ten, I won't really want to subscribe to your videos...I am very selective about who I subscribe to and who I don't.
*NOTE* to people who DO leave those kinda comments, I usually either just don't reply...or I will say that I will watch a vid of yours but no promises. Okay :-)

-When people send me videos..
GUH! This is one thing that really annoys me, I HATE it when people send me random videos...Especially if they send the same video a bunch of times, it just clogs up my inbox and makes me annoyed! It also annoys me when people I am already subscribed to send me videos especially after I have already watched them!!! It is part of the reason why I don't usually add people as friends on YouTube... Now bulletins with videos attached I don't mind so much...but yeah, sending videos to my inbox pisses me off! I usually don't even open them...DELETED

-When creepy people send me creepy messages..
Enough said!

-When comments don't work..
Ok, so when I get a new subscriber or whatever I like to go to their page and leave a comment, and sometimes they have comments disabled or they automatically block people who aren't friends, and that's fine, I've come to live with that (lol).
It's when I really want to comment someone and I write it all up and click send or whatever and then it comes up with some stupid message like: "There has been an Error" or some crap like that...and GUH! That just ticks me off! Because then I have to wait for some other time to post the comment...and it's just stupid and a waste of time.
Also another thing about comments is when the alert comes up saying you have gone exceeded the amount of comments you can use and then you have to type in a whole bunch of random letters or numbers into that lil box...Well when that lil box doesn't come up on the page! Man, that's really annoying...sigh...

-When videos are "Unavailable"..
IT'S JUST ANNOYING!!





...Ok, I think that is enough ranting for now, plus, I can't really think of much else at the moment...Oh but don't you worry, there are WAY more things that annoy me about YouTube...Like the fact that it's taken over my life, pleh, that kinda sucks HAHA!

Entry Three

Ok, so apprently Cade does read this?...He should definately make an account so he can comment and correct me on my spelling *hint hint*
...
So ANYWAYS, today I woke up at about midday...as I do most days (I do because I can)
and then I went online, well because I have nothing better to do with what is left of my summer holiday...although it is starting to feel like autum...which sucks!
But! I was not online for long because my mum got home and asked if I wanted to go out to lunch with her...considering I had not had breakfast yet, I thought it was a great idea!
After all that I went and bought some pirate stuff! yARRRRRR!
While we where out, we also looked at some cars, because I'm thinking of getting a car so I don't have to share with my sister, because it will be really hard to share, especially when Uni starts back up for me, because we both have to be different places at different times, which gets really annoying!

<3 to Dono & the REAL Matt <3

I think I spend too much time online, especially on Stickam...but thats cause there are just too many sexy people there!!

I'm sad that I'm going to have to go back to Uni, I'm not really looking forward to it, but who knows, maybe it will be a good year?

GET YO SEXY ON!!!

<3 Rache

Entry Two

(original title right?)
For some reason I just feel really, really, really pissed off...I am not really sure why...
Maybe I'm tired?
Actually, now that I think about it...I hope that people DON'T read this...
but then what is the point of having it on the internet? OMG I write this every time I've EVER written a blog.
This blog sucks!

Entry One....Guh...

Ok, so I made this blog, basically cause Cadegoestocollege and nicolenicolenicole said I should...
I don't REALLY know why haha! I still don't really believe they will read it...
(prove me wrong guys...)
At least now they can correct my spelling and grammar on a larger scale?

Ok...that's it for now...I'm going to go make my profile all pretty

Rache